To my beautiful children,
Hi, babies! You have basically been sucking the energy out of me and I have so much I want to get done, but then I get home from work and I am straight up in a state of extreme exhaustion. I went to buy new bras last night (hello…where did those things come from?!) after running some other errands, and the thought occurred to me, “should I call your dad and ask him to come escort me from this dressing room? Like, what if I can’t make it to the car?” And I was being dead serious. So I sat down for a minute and mustered the energy. I’m such a big girl. I am also such a busy body that it has been hard to attempt to slow down a bit. I mean, my kitchen sink stays clean for like two seconds and then the next second I can’t possibly bare the thought of rinsing off the plate that I just ate chicken enchiladas on (that I’ve had for the fourth meal in a row…).
To all the people out there who told me that my second trimester would be full of energy…you weren’t pregnant with twins, suckers! Thanks for the false hope!! (I love you…I’m just kidding. Those are the hormones talking).
Speaking of hormones, your dad called me a couple weeks ago after we found out that we were having a boy and a girl, and I was literally sobbing. He was clearly alarmed and said, “what’s wrong, sweetie?!” I sobbed back, “I’m just sooooo happpppyyyyy. Everyyoonnnneee is sooooo nicceeeee.” And then after I hung up I started gagging a little bit (because apparently that’s what pregnant people do at the drop of a hat), so I figured I better start to reign in the waterfall of tears pouring from my face. Good times.
During my first trimester, I felt like my emotions were pretty stable compared to going through IVF and I was quite delighted at the improvement. Then I met my second trimester. Hello, you beast. I feel very high to the point of sobbing, and very low to the point of sobbing. And these range of emotions can be unexpected. I mean, I could just be minding my own business and then someone is super nice to me and…BAM!!!…someone pass the Kleenex. I truly am just so happy that we get to welcome you into our home and into our lives that my heart just can’t handle it sometimes.
In case you’re wondering, I still think it’s incredibly charming when your cute daddy puts his head up to my belly to try to hear you. He continually makes me laugh and I thank my Heavenly Father for him every single day. Do you even know how lucky you are to have your sweet daddy ready to play with you? He’s a good catch. You’re welcome. Mama picked a good one 🙂 I was checking the grocery list app that we both add to on our phones the other day (that way, when we go to the store, we can check the list to see if we need anything), and he put “hugs for Tyler” as something on the list. I mean…really?? How does he come up with this stuff? I’m obsessed.
Your dad put together one of your cribs the other night and all of the sudden it got really real. Like…our baby is going to sleep here? It was so special. Other times I am scared out of my freaking mind. Like tonight I have kind of been panicking a little bit. I’m going to be responsible to take care of two precious lives?! Whoa.
All in all, life is good and I’m thankful for each day that you two grow. I have been feeling you move like crazy lately!! I was reading in bed on Sunday night and I couldn’t stop giggling because you were wiggling so much. It’s truly incredible.
We sure love you!
You’re worth it,
This picture was tonight. Mama can’t be bothered to clean her mirror, apparently. I’ll blame it on you. Look how much you have popped in the last couple of weeks!! My belly is definitely filled with two sweet babies.
(I love these shoes 🙂 They come in black and cream too, and are only $29.99! True to size)