To my beautiful children,
Hi, babies! You have basically been sucking the energy out of me and I have so much I want to get done, but then I get home from work and I am straight up in a state of extreme exhaustion. I went to buy new bras last night (hello…where did those things come from?!) after running some other errands, and the thought occurred to me, “should I call your dad and ask him to come escort me from this dressing room? Like, what if I can’t make it to the car?” And I was being dead serious. So I sat down for a minute and mustered the energy. I’m such a big girl. I am also such a busy body that it has been hard to attempt to slow down a bit. I mean, my kitchen sink stays clean for like two seconds and then the next second I can’t possibly bare the thought of rinsing off the plate that I just ate chicken enchiladas on (that I’ve had for the fourth meal in a row…).
To all the people out there who told me that my second trimester would be full of energy…you weren’t pregnant with twins, suckers! Thanks for the false hope!! (I love you…I’m just kidding. Those are the hormones talking).
Speaking of hormones, your dad called me a couple weeks ago after we found out that we were having a boy and a girl, and I was literally sobbing. He was clearly alarmed and said, “what’s wrong, sweetie?!” I sobbed back, “I’m just sooooo happpppyyyyy. Everyyoonnnneee is sooooo nicceeeee.” And then after I hung up I started gagging a little bit (because apparently that’s what pregnant people do at the drop of a hat), so I figured I better start to reign in the waterfall of tears pouring from my face. Good times.
During my first trimester, I felt like my emotions were pretty stable compared to going through IVF and I was quite delighted at the improvement. Then I met my second trimester. Hello, you beast. I feel very high to the point of sobbing, and very low to the point of sobbing. And these range of emotions can be unexpected. I mean, I could just be minding my own business and then someone is super nice to me and…BAM!!!…someone pass the Kleenex. I truly am just so happy that we get to welcome you into our home and into our lives that my heart just can’t handle it sometimes.
In case you’re wondering, I still think it’s incredibly charming when your cute daddy puts his head up to my belly to try to hear you. He continually makes me laugh and I thank my Heavenly Father for him every single day. Do you even know how lucky you are to have your sweet daddy ready to play with you? He’s a good catch. You’re welcome. Mama picked a good one ๐ I was checking the grocery list app that we both add to on our phones the other day (that way, when we go to the store, we can check the list to see if we need anything), and he put “hugs for Tyler” as something on the list. I mean…really?? How does he come up with this stuff? I’m obsessed.
Your dad put together one of your cribs the other night and all of the sudden it got really real. Like…our baby is going to sleep here? It was so special. Other times I am scared out of my freaking mind. Like tonight I have kind of been panicking a little bit. I’m going to be responsible to take care of two precious lives?! Whoa.
All in all, life is good and I’m thankful for each day that you two grow. I have been feeling you move like crazy lately!! I was reading in bed on Sunday night and I couldn’t stop giggling because you were wiggling so much. It’s truly incredible.
We sure love you!
You’re worth it,
Mama
This picture was tonight. Mama can’t be bothered to clean her mirror, apparently. I’ll blame it on you. Look how much you have popped in the last couple of weeks!! My belly is definitely filled with two sweet babies.
(I love these shoes ๐ They come in black and cream too, and are only $29.99! True to size)
This was a couple weeks ago. You have grown a lot since then!
This was on Easter!
(Dress here)
This was last week at 18 weeks!
(Maternity jeans here – they are LIFE CHANGING – I’m wearing a size 8 for reference and have some room to grow into the belly part, and shoes here)
Watching General Conference this past weekend. It was so good!
Freshly Picked sent our Goldie and Silver these sweet moccs!!!
There you are again, cuties! That was on Monday this week. See how much you’ve grown in the last two weeks?!
(There’s those maternity jeans again!)
H&M maternity jeans cannot be beat! The quality is great especially for that price! Check out ASOS for cute maternity stuff too!!
Seriously!! I'm going to pull them out at Thanksgiving each year too ๐ Thank you!! xo
You are too cute. Loving the white shirt. Also want is that grocery store app you use?
Thank you! The app is called Wunderlist. You can create all kinds of lists and share them with whoever you want! When one of us updates the list that we share, the other can see it as well. If we need something from the store, we will add it to the list and then whoever goes to the store first can get what we need and then check it off. It's so nice!
Agreed on the H&M maternity jeans. They were all I wore– so comfy! Could you share your grocery list app? My man & I need that in our lives, like yesterday!
The app is called Wunderlist. You can create all kinds of lists and share them with whoever you want! When one of us updates the list that we share, the other can see it as well. If we need something from the store, we will add it to the list and then whoever goes to the store first can get what we need and then check it off. It's so nice! And yes, I don't think I'm ever taking these jeans off ha ha
Love following your journey to motherhood! You're the sweetest thing ever and your babies are so lucky to have you as their mama ๐ how far along are you now?
Thank you so much! I'm 19 weeks today ๐
Jen,
You are adorable. Also the pregnancy miss swings are reaaaaaaal. I was a full on crazy. But, it levels out that goodness! I never felt engerized pregnant either, but I'm so impressed with all you're doing! Keep it up! So proud of you, and love those babies!! Xoxo
Thank you SO much!! You are so kind and made my day!! ๐
What is the grocery store app you talked about?
The app is called Wunderlist. You can create all kinds of lists and share them with whoever you want! When one of us updates the list that we share, the other can see it as well. If we need something from the store, we will add it to the list and then whoever goes to the store first can get what we need and then check it off. It's so nice!
I remember the first time I finally put a pair of maternity jeans on. It was like the heavens opened and the angels started singing. I asked the lady at the store if I could wear them out, and she laughed. She said all first time moms ask the same question!
Right?!!! They're AMAZING! I don't even feel the need to take them off when I get home at the end of the day because they are so comfy! ๐
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Look at your adorable lil belly!!! Congrats girly, you look great and can't wait to see peeks at your nursery! How's it going coming up with names? I think silver & gold are pretty adorbs and original! Lol. Thanks for the app info, def gonna download it! Congrats to your adorable fam and pure joy & honesty about pregnancy! ๐
Thank you so much!! We are naming our girl Goldie and still deciding the boy's name ๐
Dear Jenica, first of all, congratulations on your pregnancy, I hope your twins are born healthy and live a life full of joy!
You seem to be so happy, these babies will have the best mom ever ๐
God bless you and your family!
Camila
Aw thank you so much! You are so sweet and I really appreciate your kind words!
I stumbled across your blog last week as my husband prepared for first IVF cycle. Like you, we had 3 IUIS with no success, so we are now at the point where IVF makes the most sense for us.
It has been such a struggle and we haven't even started the shots yet! However, reading your story has given me hope that everything will work out for us, and that God has a plan for what is meant to happen.
I look forward to following your journey and God Bless! I can't remember being this happy for someone I have never even met ๐
Kathleen – I'm wishing you all the best on this tough journey!! Give yourself lots of rest ๐ Can't wait to hear hear the update when you are expecting. xo!