To my beautiful children,
I just got back from such an uplifting night. It was just what my soul needed. I’ve felt a little down the last couple of days, kind of fighting harder than normal to be happy; I’m pretty sure it’s the constant nausea and fatigue coupled with the freezing cold and dark, smoggy days. I feel like I had a night full of the sunshine that I desperately needed.
I went to an event for Jane.com where my friend Becki from Whippy Cake spoke about self confidence and being happy with YOU. She talked about taking care of yourself. There was a room full of successful women, and as she asked us all to go around the room and say good qualities about ourselves, it was very apparent to me that we are all the same. We all have insecurities. We all don’t feel good enough sometimes…but we SHOULD because we ARE. We absolutely are. Every one of us. I wanted to write you and remind you to always remember that when you feel unsure, there are millions of other people who feel like you. No one has it totally figured out. You’ll never feel like “you’ve made it” because that’s not what life is supposed to be like, and anyone or anything influencing you to believe that you’re the only one who has doubts is lying to you. You do, however, in your journey, need to remember that at this very moment, you are good enough. Not only that, you are wonderful and incredible. Not tomorrow, when you’ve accomplished this or done that. Today, right this very second. Be easy on yourself.
I want you to remember that life is going to break you down…and then you’ll be built up into a better person. The person that you’re supposed to be. You’re unique, and beautiful, and God has a plan for your special life. He took his time when he made you. How is that not enough?! I think that part of the hard part of life is remembering that. It’s remembering to push aside all of the negative garbage that we allow into our lives to make us think that we aren’t as good as we need to be, and remembering that we were never supposed to be absolutely perfect, and that is God’s absolutely perfect plan for us. We get to experience hard things because when we come out on the other end, we might be bleeding and have bruises and scars, but we are standing. We’ve learned, and stretched, and we’ve grown.
What good quality did I say about myself when my turn came? I’ll admit, I panicked at first. “What am I going to say??” Then it hit me. There are lots of good things about me, and one of them that I’m so proud of is the fact that I can find the good in any situation. I can find the joy in my circumstances…even when giving myself hundreds of shots and having the emotional pain of trying to have children but not being able to. I learning to be happy. I learned to be grateful. It was hard at first and I struggled a lot, but it was really empowering for me to grasp that I can completely control my attitude and perception. Remember that it’s okay to have moments where you let yourself be sad, but always pick yourself back up because there is always some good to find when you look. There is always laughter to be found.
I want you to remember that life is hard, but you are tough, and the situations you are put in were meant for you. You were made for this! When you get to the other side, look back, and I want you to be proud of yourself for making it through and remember what you learned because that is one of life’s greatest gifts. You will learn compassion, empathy, and be given the ability to carry others on their path because of what you have learned on your own path. There is so much beauty in watching others lift you as well.
Please don’t forget to build yourself up. When you look in the mirror, remember to point out the good, and only the good. Please remember that you have a purpose. Be still. When you forget, be still and remember how wonderfully you were created.
I love you, my babies.