Since I gave myself the estradiol valerate injection a day early this week, my IVF coordinator told me to inject my other shot that week a day early too and then get back on the Tuesday/Friday night schedule after that next week. I felt super tough when I told your dad to just hurry and give me the shot instead of taking 10-20 minutes without various antics like crying, throwing myself onto the bed or saying, “I don’t even want a stupid baby.” Go me!! Celebrate the little victories. I’m getting tougher and tougher.
This morning at 8 am I went into the fertility center to get the neupogen put in.
I have had the neupogen in my fridge for the past few weeks. This medication isn’t covered by insurance because it’s not FDA approved for infertility, but I’ll spend an extra $400 to get you here. You just remember that when I’m asking you to clean your room. Anyway, I was talking to the nurse more about it today and she said that it basically communicates with the embryos when they are implanted to make them stick better. That is the exact scientific definition. She went on to say that studies are being shown that some women don’t have a protein in them that helps with implantation, and this helps with that. My doctor puts it in 5 days before transfer because that’s the ideal time to get my uterus ready. What the nurse did was take a catheter and inject it into my uterus that way. Before she did that, I also had her give me my progesterone shot which I started this morning. Your dad was going to be at church by the time I was done with my appointment so I brought it for her to do. I am fine giving myself the shots in my tummy, but the shots in my booty are a different angle…if you know what I mean.
Starting today, I give myself the progesterone shots every morning. If I get pregnant, I will continue to give myself these shots every morning for 12 weeks. There is way more medicine in these shots (1 ml instead of .15 ml) so they make the area a lot more sore. Basically, have someone punch you in the butt really hard, and wait for it to bruise a bit. That’s how my butt feels!
We are feeling really great about the transfer coming up on Friday at 1:30. We have done 4 things differently this round than we have done in our previous 2 IVF cycles:
1) I gave myself human growth hormone shots 5 days before egg retrieval to strengthen my eggs. If you’re an NBA Allstar, don’t blame me.
2) Dr. Foulk removed 2 polyps in my uterus
3) A neupogen wash inside my uterus 5 days before implantation
4) Acupuncture
I think that everything is lining up well and we feel very hopeful. I feel at peace with what we are doing and feel that we are making every possible effort to get you here. Now we are putting it in God’s hands. If you are meant to come to us, you will. If now is not the time, we will continue to try and trust that God is guiding our lives as He wants them to be.
I felt such a peace at church today and really know that if this IVF round isn’t successful, that we will be okay. I think it will work, I’m not saying that, but what I am saying is that I know I can turn to Christ if it doesn’t and He will help us carry this burden. He is the Prince of Peace. Who doesn’t want more peace in their lives? I think we get so caught up in everything that we need to accomplish and our trials that we need to get through, that sometimes we forget that we have help. So many talks at church today reminded me of that. I can turn to Him and I can accomplish all that I am tested with.
We watched this movie during young women today and I practically bawled like a baby because I was so touched by it! It’s called, “He Knows My Name.” I know that Christ knows each of our names. It’s hard for my human mind to wrap my head around that fact that there are billions of people in this world and yet He cares for me individually, but I know that He does. He has put people in my life and I’ve gotten special, encouraging emails and messages from people with exactly what I need to hear in that moment which reassure me He is watching over me. I feel like a burden was lifted from me today. I have been a bit worried lately. Now I know that I will be okay no matter what.
We love you, baby!! We really do. We haven’t met you and yet we love you so dearly. Your dad melts my heart. He always points out the cute babies in church. Today he leaned over and said, “that baby is so cute; she is so small.” We had two cute little boys crawl over to us at separate times in Sunday school. They both couldn’t stop smiling at your daddy! He also told me yesterday as we were driving that he can’t wait to spend time with you. You are so lucky to have him. He is everything to me and he will be everything to you too. He’ll make you laugh when you think you can’t find your smile.
You’re worth it! Thanks for helping us learn so much. Thanks for helping us truly value the role of motherhood and fatherhood. We wouldn’t change a thing.
xo
Mom
The Neupogen and progesterone from today
I love how beautiful you look at your appointment this morning!! Your hair looks so amazing!
Oh you are so sweet! It was right before church so I was dressed up 🙂
Praying for you this week!! Hang in there!
Thank you! We can truly feel your prayers! Xo
I stumbled onto your blog and have been following your story. Your positivity radiates through your blogs and I admire that so much, your trust and faith in Christ is incredible. My husband and I have been praying for you and your family and we both look forward to updates! I can tell you two will be incredible parents and your beautiful child is already so loved and blessed. We are sending prayers your way this week.
Thank you SO much! What kind things to say. I truly appreciate them! And thank you for your prayers. I have no doubt they have helped to carry me!
I stumbled onto your blog and have been following your story. Your positivity radiates through your blogs and I admire that so much, your trust and faith in Christ is incredible. My husband and I have been praying for you and your family and we both look forward to updates! I can tell you two will be incredible parents and your beautiful child is already so loved and blessed. We are sending prayers your way this week.
praying for you and your family.
– Ashley
http://www.constellationandcanine.com
Thank you!! I can truly feel each prayer. Xo
When do you find out the results?
I go in on Dec. 28th for a blood draw and find out that day!
Oh my goodness! So exciting. Fingers and toes and everything crossed for you guys. Plus lots of prayers which probably work better 🙂 Really am hoping it is wonderful news!
I just recently found your blog via Instagram. We LOVE Dr. Foulk!!! Also, my brother is the director of "He Knows My Name." So happy you had success and are enjoying your sweet baby twins. Life is beautiful!
Just found your site and am getting ready to do my 4th IVF. We are doing Neupogen for the first time. You mentioned acupuncture, what exact did they focus on and how many treatments did you have before, day of or after?
Hi, Dawn! I’m so sorry you need to do it again. You are a strong woman! I can’t remember all of the details. I used the acupuncturist that works with my chiropracter and trusted his expertise. I did it for a month before and then an hour before embryo transfer and right after. Wishing you all of the very best!
Hi Jenica! Wow what an inspiring story! I found your posts by googling “neupogen for IVF stim”. My DR actually has me injecting it. I’ll be heading in to my 4th IVF cycle as soon as my cycle gets underway. I am blessed with a beautiful 4 year old daughter. I have… I guess you would call it secondary infertility? I needed to hear your positivity I have been broke and angry and you reminded me of the person I “used” to be. I lost her somewhere between the 4th IUI and the second IVF cycle. Anyway thank you! And congrats on your beautiful babies! Xoxo
This is me sending you a huge HUG!! And a foot massage. Ha! You sweet mama. Thank you so much for reaching out to me. You are strong and you were made for this trial, of that I’m sure. LOVE to you!
I’m getting ready of our final transfer after having endured 9 losses. We’ve done acupuncture for the last three months and Dr. Gurtcheff is having me do neupogen as well before this last transfer, after this, our family is complete, one way or another. Seeing that we’ve done many of the same things gives me hope! Thank you for this post. I’ll only be transferring one embryo so hopefully only one baby!
I’m praying for you, friend! Wow. You’ve been through so much. God is surely preparing you for something BIG. You have so much empathy to help others. I’m so sorry you have to feel this much pain, though. Praying for your peace! So much love to you!