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To My Beautiful Child

To My Beautiful Child

22 Sep


To my beautiful child,





The idea to write you letters came to me when I purchased a lovely little notepad while at Niagra on the Lake in Canada on a business trip. The notepad is titled, “100 Gathered Thoughts for my Beautiful Child” and there is place to write notes on each page, and then at the bottom of every page there is a beautiful quote, like a love note from a parent to a child. All of the them are great advice or sweet thoughts and I thought of you while I read each one. It’s strange to say I thought of you when we have never met, but I feel like I know you already. You’re a part of our family and you’re already beautiful to us, no matter what you’ll be like or what you’ll look like.





I knew I wanted to document our next IVF try on our infertility journey because it feels so good to write it all out, and I thought this would be a good way. When you are older, I’ll give you these letters and you’ll know how much you were wanted and how desperately dad and I longed to hold you in our arms. There are so many good people who are supporting us in our journey to get you here. It’s really neat. 





So, here goes! The first part of our story is here, and we are about to dive into this whole mess again 🙂 We took the summer off and it was a much needed break. I felt so completely physically and emotionally exhausted after the last two rounds of in vitro that it felt good to take a breather. There were a couple times when I got up my hopes that I was pregnant, but it wasn’t true. It’s hard to not have hope every month, though, thinking that this might be the month that a miracle happens. 





We had two appointments with two doctors that we had heard really good things about and we wanted to move on to different doctor with a fresh perspective. I was hoping that the doctor we went to today would be a good fit because his office is the same clinic that we have been going to and it’s really convenient because I work so close to the office. The other doctor’s office is over an hour away, but of course would be worth the drive if we didn’t feel good about this first doctor. 





I met your dad in the parking lot; his truck was already there when I pulled in and when I got out of my car he gave me a big hug. We walked in and signed in, then went to the couch and tried to take a few pictures to document the process. It was hard to get a good one and your dad had me laughing, as he always does. Thank goodness for him. I have been sick with nerves the entire day and on the verge of tears several times just trying to hold it in! The nerves were a bit unexpected. As of the last few weeks, I have felt ready enough and then when today came and it hit me that we were starting this process over again, a wave of panic and nerves hit me. Our bodies and minds are funny things. They surprise you and experiences affect you even more deeply than you are aware. 





We sat in the doctor’s office for a few minutes while waiting for him to come in and dad joked that he should go sit in the doctor’s chair and that would bring us good luck. I begged him not to and just as he did, the doctor walked in. Woops! Luckily, he was really nice and laughed. Your dad a crazy one and cracks me up.





The doctor asked us about ourselves and we filled him in on why we choose to meet with him and then he got out a piece of paper and wrote this:





Baby = Sperm + Egg + Uterus 





(We’ve had the sex ed talk…right? You know where babies come from, don’t you? 😉 )





He said that if we aren’t getting pregnant, it’s because one of these pieces are missing. He checked off all but the “egg” part and that’s when I started crying. I just lost it! I had been so nervous the whole day and when he told me that was the issue I don’t know if I started crying because I was relieved that he thinks he knows what the issue is, the fact that it’s something in my body that’s the problem, or how overwhelmed and scared I am to start this process again? Or all 3?! He pushed over the tissues and I grabbed one said in my high-pitched teary voice, “You have tissues in here because everyone always cries in here!” and they both laughed. 





Last time we did IVF, I got 38 eggs and only 3 of those eggs turned into embryos which is very low. He said that at least 1/3 of the eggs should have been fertilized and turned into embryos. He believes that I have endometriosis, so that means I’ll have to take a different medication when I do IVF to help get some good quality eggs. We hope it will work, and should be able to tell when the embryos are created this time. 





I have another appointment next Monday to do a water ultrasound and make sure that my uterus wasn’t hurt at all during my miscarriage, and then my plan of care to outline the schedule over the next couple of months. I should start taking the shots a couple weeks after that which I am TERRIFIED ABOUT kind of nervous about. 





This world is a rough place but oh, I am so excited for you to get to experience the good things here! I’m grateful for this experience because I get to see such a great side of people and have my perspective changed. I have been stretched to my limit and because of that I have grown, grown, grown. I look at everyone who has been encouraging to us and I think to myself that every one of them is struggling with different things, and yet they take the time out of their day to focus on our problems and help carry us through with words of encouragement. That’s what’s cool about life. We all have problems, but we help each other carry one another’s problems. By lifting others, it lifts our spirits and helps us to grow too. It’s beautiful and I’m lucky to get to witness it. 





You’re worth it,





Mom





Here are a few photos from today before we went in to see the doctor. We couldn’t seem to get a good one so the 9th time is the charm…right?



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  1. Erin Fairchild says

    September 22, 2015 at 1:29 am

    Sending so much love both of you ways!!

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    • Jenica Parcell says

      September 22, 2015 at 6:50 pm

      Thank you so much, Erin!! xo

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  2. Adrienne Biehl says

    September 22, 2015 at 2:16 am

    I am excited to follow your journey! My husband and I have been struggling with infertility for a year and a half, and I absolutely love when people share their stories. It's so comforting to know that we are not alone in this! I haven't yet blogged about our experiences, but I may soon. You're so brave and I admire that! Praying that you guys are successful this time around 🙂

    Jaydriennebiehl.blogspot.com

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    • Jenica Parcell says

      September 22, 2015 at 6:50 pm

      We are definitely not alone in this and that's part of the reason I am sharing my story. We can be strong together!! I will you and your husband in my prayers!! xo

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  3. Anonymous says

    September 22, 2015 at 2:42 am

    I love this! The pictures of you two speak volumes about the kind of parents you will be. So much love and positive energy.

    I don't what your religious beliefs are, but I am catholic, and we believe in saints. When my husband and I were going through our infertility and IVF journey, one of my best friends sent me a necklace with a Saint Gerard medallion. He is the patron saint of mothers, expectant mothers in particular, and children, particularly unborn children. My friend sent me this necklace right before we did our final IVF cycle. (It was to be our final try because our insurance ran out). We were blessed in that cycle to conceive our twin daughters. My hubby still wears that necklace to this day, 5 years later. My purpose in telling you this is, you have my prayers to God and Saint Gerard.

    Also, sorry this is so long, but I'm a seasoned veteran! I have lots of wisdom to impart. That last cycle, I started using unscented deodorant, stopped using perfumes and heavily scented lotions. My hubby had read that perfumes mess with your natural body chemistry. So it was worth a try. Also, I did accupuncture.
    Good luck to you guys! I'm praying so hard! I know we are strangers but I feel a kinship to you because I've been right where you are and I'll never forget it. Xoxo Kristen

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    • Jenica Parcell says

      September 22, 2015 at 6:53 pm

      Thank you so much, your words mean more than you know! What a beautiful thought. We are LDS (Mormon) and believe that Jesus Christ and our Heavenly Father are with us in this process and I SO appreciate you sharing your faith me. I love that your husband still wears that necklace. I appreciate your prayers more than you know!

      I am also definitely going to look into acupuncture and do that as well. I'll stop using perfumes too; anything that helps! Thank you so much!

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  4. Jay and Haley says

    September 22, 2015 at 6:26 am

    You are amazing. I love your outlook on life, your strength, and your infectious joy. Thank you for sharing this. It is beautiful, and I'm sure it will be such a treasure for your child! You can do this. I love you!!

    Reply
    • Jenica Parcell says

      September 22, 2015 at 6:53 pm

      Thank you, Haley! I feel the same about you! You're the greatest 🙂 I love you!

      Reply
  5. Briana Rider says

    September 22, 2015 at 1:31 pm

    Wishing you so much luck this time around!

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    • Jenica Parcell says

      September 22, 2015 at 6:54 pm

      Thank you so much, Briana! I really appreciate you taking the time to wish us luck; we need it 😉 xo

      Reply
  6. Shawn says

    September 24, 2015 at 3:43 am

    Your auntie wishes you all the best and I'll be praying for you. Love the letter idea and love the pictures! XO

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    • Jenica Parcell says

      September 25, 2015 at 4:31 am

      Thank you, auntie! Love you! 🙂

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