To my beautiful child,
So…I was just sitting on the couch watching Real Housewives of Orange County (which I do not condone, and I’m slightly concerned that anyone reading this might lower their opinion of me just a tad with their new knowledge of the fact that I waste my precious time on this high class and equally high quality television show) and I looked up one of the women on the show, Yolanda, on Instagram who is married to David Foster. She posts lots of pictures of her beautiful daughters and talks about how they are her life and happiness…and the next thing I know it, I am bawling my eyes out!! Like, not just a few tears. Like, ruining my mascara and puffy face crying. I kept picturing the moment when your daddy and I get to meet you for the first time and I just couldn’t even handle how precious that moment will be!
Your dad and I were in the living room on Sunday with the TV on, and a commercial played that showed a husband and wife meeting their adopted daughter for the first time. We looked at each other and our eyes were both filled with tears!!
I’m getting more nauseous by the day which makes it really hard to want to do pretty much anything except lay in bed and sip my La Croix (flavored carbonated water). It has taken me a solid 30-45 minutes to convince myself each morning that getting out of bed is a good idea after my alarm goes off. I hate feeling like this…and I LOVE feeling like this!! Because this means that you are nice and snuggly inside, making yourself at home. I’m still spotting, and…wait, are you ready for this? I bought panty liners to put in my undies. Your dad asked me today if they feel like a diaper and I told him that they, in fact, do not. They are quite thin. One of the nurses told me that the progesterone suppositories can irritate “up there” which can cause some bleeding and discharge from the medicine melting and coming back out. I seriously can’t believe I just told you that but I wanted to document this whole experience…so there you have it…unfiltered!
So…I stopped by Maverik yesterday after my lunch break nap to buy some Hostess donuts and made a little video to document the moment. This is SO OUT OF CHARACTER for me! Like seriously. I mean, don’t get me wrong, mama likes a treat (or five), but I would normally never stop somewhere just to get a treat. Oh, and don’t worry, I ate both of them. And I didn’t even regret it! Well, not until an hour later when I started to feel sick, but I couldn’t even be mad because I did it to myself. Or you did it…but you’re the size of a sweet pea so I can’t discipline you yet.
January in Utah has been rough for me this year. It’s so cold and it gets dark so early! I was feeling a little down after work, and then I looked out the window in the kitchen, and God had painted the most beautiful sunset for me. I said, out loud, “Oh, wow!!!” Those nice little reminders mean there are sunnier days ahead.
We go in on Friday for the ultrasound to find out if there are one or two of you, and we get to hear the heartbeat for the first time!! This has been the LONGEST week ever waiting for our appointment because we are so excited. Your dad put his ear to my belly but all he heard were cupcakes in there.
I love you!! Your daddy loves you!
You’re worth it!