To my beautiful children,
You are sucking the energy out of me. I got back to the house tonight and sat in the car for 20 minutes because I couldn’t muster the energy to get out of my car and walk in. I’ll make you a deal, though. If you keep taking all of my energy to grow healthy and strong, you can have it. Deal? I seriously LOVE YOU!!!
You are both the size of little limes. Limes! You cute little nuggets. My belly isn’t really showing much still. I feel a little bloated but the bloating has gone down since I stopped the progesterone shots yesterday. There is going to be a lot of growth in the next few months! I wear my jeans with a little rubber band around the loop and button because I don’t want to squish you. I mean, that’s just rude. I need to buy some maternity jeans soon.
I was thinking about the differences of being pregnant vs. going through IVF:
– Way more exhausted physically being pregnant.
– Way more exhausted emotionally going through IVF. People say that they are extremely emotional while pregnant and I feel like my hormones and emotions are much more stable in comparison to IVF!
– So nauseous being pregnant. Whoever came up with the term “morning sickness” was on crack. Excuse my French. I think the exhaustion is getting to me.
– Did I mention exhaustion while pregnant? It’s an exhaustion like no other. I slept for 10 hours the other night, and I was still tired.
– No more shots (I’ve been doing daily progesterone shots through 11 weeks), so now I don’t have to do any more shots. I don’t know what I’m going to do with myself! No more bruises. I started to get used to them at the end, but they will be a welcome absence in my life.
– Loads and loads of happiness being pregnant. The anticipation of your arrival has your daddy and I giddy. We like to talk about you. We were lying in bed the other night reading and I put down my book suddenly and said, “Tyler! We get two sets of chubby baby legs to squish!” He laughed and said when one of you got sick of us squishing your legs, we could go to the other one. And back and forth and back and forth. You are two loved little sweethearts.
To celebrate being done with the shots, I took some pictures. This isn’t all of the shots because I disposed of many of them. I wish I had counted how many. Hundreds. And I would do it over again to get my sweet babies on the way. My heart just about explodes when we get to see an ultrasound of your development. You are growing so fast! You have fingers and toes now. You’re 11 weeks and 3 days old today.
Your dad is seriously going to be the best dad. He takes such good care of us. He texts me in the middle of the day to ask how “us three” are doing. He makes me food when I get sick. He tucks me into bed without me even having to ask. He honestly treats me like a queen, and I can’t wait to see you in his arms. He is a proud daddy already.
We love you!
xo
Mama
Lots of shots!!
This is what I looked like when I got home tonight. I went to work with my hair like that! Ha ha ha. I’m so tired 🙂
Sunday’s Parcell Sunday Selfie. We stayed up at my mom’s house this weekend to escape the horrible Utah smog. Sunday was Valentine’s Day and I’m lucky to have one big Valentine and 2 tiny Valentine’s this year!
Love love reading your post i relive my pregnancy once again thru you. Awww thoes babies sure are growing alot from now on so take extra care of yourself they need a healthy strong womb to grow in. Can't wait till your next post.
-Mommy of 2 from Houston,Tx
Thank you so much!! xo
So happy for you. Reading this post made me tear up a little; just how incredibly grateful you must feel 🙂 My first round of IVF was an ectopic pregnancy, and I am still completely devastated. Those progesterone shots were seriously the worst! Our next IVF round will be a FET and I wince at the thought of doing those shots again, but like you said it will be so worth it in the end! Hope you start to get some energy back second trimester!
Thank you so much; and I'm so sorry! I know how it feels to not have IVF go the way you want. I'm wishing you all the best! My doctor said FET's have better success rates than a fresh transfer 🙂
Wow….all those needles, and like you said, there are so many more. I was thinking about saving all mine this year for a similar photo but I feel like my husband will look at me like I'm nuts for keeping them around!! Haha! Grow little limes grow!!
Keep them!! Ha ha it's kind of cool to look back on 🙂
You look great!! The exhaustion is crazy and doesn't get any better… I've been trying to sleep as much as I can 🙂
Thank you! Yeah…napping is my new best friend 🙂
Just think of all the energy it takes your body to grow not one but two humans . Don't beat yourself up about being so tired ! You deserve a nap ? and that's It's ok . Hopefully when your nausea goes you'll get more energy ! I love this picture . You guys are so cute !!!
Seriously! They need a lot of it to grow! Thank you; you're so sweet!
I work at a pharmacy that dispenses fertility medications and reading your story fills my heart with joy. I LOVE hearing success stories,and you have two!!! I'm so happy for you!
Aw thank you so much!!
Hey Jenica, did you use Lupron leading up to your transfer? My Dr. prescribed me Lupron for my 2nd transfer and I am NOT liking the side affects for both me and baby. I don't know of anyone who has taken it, just searching for some feedback. Thank you!
Yes, I took that too! I got terrible night sweats. I would wake up dripping wet! And then I would randomly be freezing and not be able to get warmed up. Hang in there, mama!
This is beautiful. It makes my heart happy and makes me hopeful that ivf will also work for my husband and I. We plan to start in July. Thank you for sharing and best wishes to your growing family!
I'm wishing you all the best as you start IVF! Remember to be easy on yourself 🙂 xo
I’m currently going through IVF, next Sunday I start the lupron shots and we have transfer scheduled for july 21st. It’s so uplifting to read stories like yours, it nums the fear a little bit. Thank you. I can’t wait to share mine.
Wishing you all the best in this hard process! Give yourself lots of rest. You’re strong!