To my beautiful child,
I made it through today!! I’m kind of proud of myself. I woke up this morning and forgot that your dad had to leave for work early today so that meant I had to give myself the Menopur and Bravelle injections. The first time during round 1 of IVF when I started these injections, I didn’t know what I was in for, and decided to give them to myself when your dad had already left for a church meeting. This ended in me sobbing afterward because the Menopur BURNS and I had just not emotionally prepared myself for that. So…when I found out that I would have to give them to myself this morning, I wasn’t very excited about it. It’s easier when I inject the needle and hold it still while your dad pushes in the venom medication š
Well, mama has got to do what she’s gotta do so I mixed the 4 powders of Bravelle and 1 powder of Menopur into 1 ml of water. I cried a little. Or a lot…for a minute or two. I said a prayer. Then I injected the medication and yes, it burned, but I smiled because I did it. I then gave myself the Lupron injection and was SO relived. My heart had been pounding beforehand. Day by day!
I went back to my bathroom and turned on the Frank Sinatra radio Pandora station and Michael Buble started singing, “The Best is Yet to Come.” I danced around because it felt good, and before I left my bathroom I put on my happy red boots. It was a good day.
So far, on most days I feel really good until about 5 pm and then I’m just exhausted. I went to Costco last night and I swear I would have paid someone good money to load my groceries in my car. My body is tired so I’m trying to rest at night. I have good intentions of going to the gym each night but that hasn’t quite happened the last few weeks. I’m being easy on myself because I’m doing the best I can. Making a baby ain’t a small task!
You’re worth it.
xo
Mom
p.s.
Your dad texted me today asked me how the shits went today. Thank you, auto correct. Ha ha ha ha!
I have been reading as you go through this journey. I applaud your spirit, because I'm not sure I could be so brave. I saw this today and it made me think of you. I just felt like I should leave it here. I'm not sure if you'll see it it, but I couldn't stop thinking about it. Here you go, keep hanging on girl, you are stronger than you think.
http://gardnerquadsquad.com/prayers-are-answered-but-not-how-we-think-they-should-be/
I will definitely check that out, thank you so much, Michelle! Thank you for thinking of me and for your kind, encouraging words š
Ha ha!!! Love the autocorrect. Nice way to bring a little humor into it all. š I never did Menopur, but added burning on top of everything does NOT sound fun. The only positive is that you can do them in your tummy! Yay! I hated when it was hip shots every time. Good job being brave and doing it alone. You're right – SO worth it! ā¤ļø?
Ba ha ha I think laughing is the medicine that counteracts all of the other crap š Menopur is no fun but luckily it's only for a couple weeks! xo
Just finished my first round of ivf which unfortunately did not work for us, but I was told that if you push the menopur in slowly that it doesn't burn near as bad. That really helped me a lot with those! You may already know that though but wanted to pass along the info if not! I also had those pesky polyps and stage 4 endo. Hoping round two goes better! Hope the third time is the charm for y'all!
Ellen
I'm sorry, it's such a bummer when it doesn't work out! Everything will work out the way that it is supposed to though. I have faith in that. I wish you the very best in your next round!! xo
Way to go girly! Sorry would have sent this sooner but I'm just catching up! Constantly praying, Lura