To my beautiful child,
I made it through today!! I’m kind of proud of myself. I woke up this morning and forgot that your dad had to leave for work early today so that meant I had to give myself the Menopur and Bravelle injections. The first time during round 1 of IVF when I started these injections, I didn’t know what I was in for, and decided to give them to myself when your dad had already left for a church meeting. This ended in me sobbing afterward because the Menopur BURNS and I had just not emotionally prepared myself for that. So…when I found out that I would have to give them to myself this morning, I wasn’t very excited about it. It’s easier when I inject the needle and hold it still while your dad pushes in the venom medication 🙂
Well, mama has got to do what she’s gotta do so I mixed the 4 powders of Bravelle and 1 powder of Menopur into 1 ml of water. I cried a little. Or a lot…for a minute or two. I said a prayer. Then I injected the medication and yes, it burned, but I smiled because I did it. I then gave myself the Lupron injection and was SO relived. My heart had been pounding beforehand. Day by day!
I went back to my bathroom and turned on the Frank Sinatra radio Pandora station and Michael Buble started singing, “The Best is Yet to Come.” I danced around because it felt good, and before I left my bathroom I put on my happy red boots. It was a good day.
So far, on most days I feel really good until about 5 pm and then I’m just exhausted. I went to Costco last night and I swear I would have paid someone good money to load my groceries in my car. My body is tired so I’m trying to rest at night. I have good intentions of going to the gym each night but that hasn’t quite happened the last few weeks. I’m being easy on myself because I’m doing the best I can. Making a baby ain’t a small task!
You’re worth it.
xo
Mom
p.s.
Your dad texted me today asked me how the shits went today. Thank you, auto correct. Ha ha ha ha!
Michelle says
November 4, 2015 at 5:13 amI have been reading as you go through this journey. I applaud your spirit, because I'm not sure I could be so brave. I saw this today and it made me think of you. I just felt like I should leave it here. I'm not sure if you'll see it it, but I couldn't stop thinking about it. Here you go, keep hanging on girl, you are stronger than you think.
http://gardnerquadsquad.com/prayers-are-answered-but-not-how-we-think-they-should-be/
Jenica Parcell says
November 6, 2015 at 3:49 amI will definitely check that out, thank you so much, Michelle! Thank you for thinking of me and for your kind, encouraging words 🙂
Kendra says
November 4, 2015 at 8:34 amHa ha!!! Love the autocorrect. Nice way to bring a little humor into it all. 🙂 I never did Menopur, but added burning on top of everything does NOT sound fun. The only positive is that you can do them in your tummy! Yay! I hated when it was hip shots every time. Good job being brave and doing it alone. You're right – SO worth it! ❤️?
Jenica Parcell says
November 6, 2015 at 3:50 amBa ha ha I think laughing is the medicine that counteracts all of the other crap 😉 Menopur is no fun but luckily it's only for a couple weeks! xo
Anonymous says
November 6, 2015 at 12:48 amJust finished my first round of ivf which unfortunately did not work for us, but I was told that if you push the menopur in slowly that it doesn't burn near as bad. That really helped me a lot with those! You may already know that though but wanted to pass along the info if not! I also had those pesky polyps and stage 4 endo. Hoping round two goes better! Hope the third time is the charm for y'all!
Ellen
Jenica Parcell says
November 6, 2015 at 3:51 amI'm sorry, it's such a bummer when it doesn't work out! Everything will work out the way that it is supposed to though. I have faith in that. I wish you the very best in your next round!! xo
Domesticable says
November 6, 2015 at 1:25 pmWay to go girly! Sorry would have sent this sooner but I'm just catching up! Constantly praying, Lura