To my beautiful child,
I made it through today!! I’m kind of proud of myself. I woke up this morning and forgot that your dad had to leave for work early today so that meant I had to give myself the Menopur and Bravelle injections. The first time during round 1 of IVF when I started these injections, I didn’t know what I was in for, and decided to give them to myself when your dad had already left for a church meeting. This ended in me sobbing afterward because the Menopur BURNS and I had just not emotionally prepared myself for that. So…when I found out that I would have to give them to myself this morning, I wasn’t very excited about it. It’s easier when I inject the needle and hold it still while your dad pushes in the
venom medication 🙂
Well, mama has got to do what she’s gotta do so I mixed the 4 powders of Bravelle and 1 powder of Menopur into 1 ml of water. I cried a little. Or a lot…for a minute or two. I said a prayer. Then I injected the medication and yes, it burned, but I smiled because I did it. I then gave myself the Lupron injection and was SO relived. My heart had been pounding beforehand. Day by day!
I went back to my bathroom and turned on the Frank Sinatra radio Pandora station and Michael Buble started singing, “The Best is Yet to Come.” I danced around because it felt good, and before I left my bathroom I put on my happy red boots. It was a good day.
So far, on most days I feel really good until about 5 pm and then I’m just exhausted. I went to Costco last night and I swear I would have paid someone good money to load my groceries in my car. My body is tired so I’m trying to rest at night. I have good intentions of going to the gym each night but that hasn’t quite happened the last few weeks. I’m being easy on myself because I’m doing the best I can. Making a baby ain’t a small task!
You’re worth it.
Your dad texted me today asked me how the shits went today. Thank you, auto correct. Ha ha ha ha!