• LTK SHOP
  • AMAZON SHOP
  • DISCOUNT CODES
  • INFERTILITY
    • INFERTILITY COACHING
    • BEGINNING OF OUR INFERTILITY JOURNEY
    • 3RD ROUND OF IVF – TWINS
    • TWIN’S IVF CYCLE THAT WORKED – WHAT WAS DIFFERENT
    • TWIN PREGNANCY
    • TWIN BIRTH STORY
    • SINGELTON FROZEN EMBRYO TRANSFER
  • CONTACT
  • Nav Social Menu

    • Instagram
    • Pinterest
    • YouTube

A Slice of Style

  • blog posts
    • Fashion
    • Amazon
    • Walmart Favorites
    • Skincare
    • Home Decor
    • Family
    • To My Beautiful Child
    • Food
      • Appetizers
    • Travel

To My Beautiful Child: Lots and lots of injections and medicine!

3rd round of IVF· To My Beautiful Child

17 Dec


To my beautiful child,





I’m writing this at 6:30 am. My alarm doesn’t go off until 6:45 but I have been up since 6 so I decided to write you this letter that I wanted to write last night. I read the other day that Progesterone injections can cause insomnia and I thought, “that’s so nice that I don’t have that side effect.” And now I haven’t slept in past 6 am the last few days…so that’s nice!





These last few days have been a roller coaster! I woke up yesterday morning feeling a bit down. And then I felt guilty for feeling down…and then I forced myself not to feel guilty (see what I mean by roller coaster?) because I’m going through a really hard thing and it’s okay to feel down sometimes! I mean, I don’t wallow in self pity by any means, but if I want to spend a few minutes feeling a bit discouraged by the big trial I’ve been going through, that’s okay and it’s normal. I sometimes feel guilty because in the grand scheme of my life, I think I have it very, very good. It’s okay to be sad for a little bit though for something that I hold so dear to my heart; family. It’s the most important thing in life and I want you here with us. The physical and emotional burden takes it’s toll at times. 





I finally got out of bed yesterday morning at about 6:45 and while taking a shower, I started thinking about the village that has helped us throughout this process, and all of the kind and generous gestures. I’m so grateful. And note to self: if you ever need to sob, doing it in the shower is a great place to do it. Run your face under the water when you’re done, and voila! Tears gone, no mascara that smeared everywhere. I mean, if you really need to blow your nose I’m sure you can just do it in there too. I couldn’t bring myself to do it, but I’m not one to judge if you do. I think it feels good to cry sometimes. There are so many emotions, both good and bad, bitter and grateful, that escape my body when I cry. I feel a lot better afterward and can move right along with my day!





One of the nice things is that I am fully aware that feeling the entire human emotional spectrum in a matter of minutes is due to the wide range of medication that I am currently on. Let’s take a peak, shall we?





1. Baby aspirin – so my blood doesn’t clot from all of the other medication. Now that’s a pleasant thought!





2. Pre-natal vitamins – this is normal…I have taken these for years. But still. They must be counted.





3. Thyroid medication – when doing my initial infertility testing, my original doctor found out that my thyroid was off. Every morning, at least 30 minutes before I eat, I have to take a thyroid pill to help me maintain normal levels. This is hereditary; my mom and grandma have this issue as well. The only difficult part about finding this out was knowing that I had to wait 30 minutes every morning to eat after I woke up. I mean, I was the baby that went straight from the crib to the highchair and I haven’t change a bit with age. My mom would try to change my diaper before she put me in the high chair and I would throw a big fit (I mean, a girl’s gotta eat) so she eventually stopped trying and I’ve been a perfect angel ever since. We all know the key to my heart. The first thing my mom and your daddy did when they found out was laugh and say, “how can you wait 30 whole minutes in the morning to eat?!” I like food, okay? As Chris Farley put it so eloquently, “Lay off me!! I’m starving!!!”





4. Progesterone injection – 1 ml in the booty every morning. If I do get pregnant, these will continue until I’m 12 weeks. Your dad is getting good at these and is considering quitting his job in insurance and becoming a nurse. 





5. Estradiol valerate injection – .15 ml in the booty every Tuesday and Friday nights.





6. Medrol – two pills in the morning and two pills at night for 4 days this week. This is a steroid. I forgot why they are giving it to me so I looked it up and the definition said this, “ A steroid which is sometimes given to transiently suppress immune function during the interval following retrieval and transfer up to the time of implantation.” The good news is, after reading that, I still don’t know why they are giving it to me.





7. Z Pack antibiotics – every day for 5 days to make sure I don’t have an infection anywhere before transfer on Friday. 








So…if I do anything a little irrational, or basically do anything out of the ordinary, I feel completely comfortable saying, “YOU WOULD TOO!!!” to strike fear in the heart of whoever dared poke the dragon. 





Here are some things I got annoyed about yesterday:





– Leaving dinner last night, my mom and I were standing in front of the door. Some people tried to get out of the door. We had to move. The audacity! How dare they!





– I overheard someone else getting annoyed at something. Seriously?! I’m the only one allowed to do that.





– And that’s all that I can think of right now but I’m positive there were more.





It was snowing like crazy when I was headed home last night, and when I got home, your dad and I took a spin around the neighborhood on our ATV, sliding all around in the snow. Except it didn’t slide around that much which we were both impressed with because my car barely made it up the little hill since it was so icy. We both bundled up with two coats, beanies, gloves, etc. We saw some parents on a 4-wheeler pulling their kids behind it on a sled. Your dad kept saying that if we had kids, we would be doing that too and I smiled at the thought. When we got home, your dad asked me to do a snow angel…so naturally I made the best snow angel this world has ever known. We danced around in the snow, holding hands. It sounds so goofy but it was fun to act like a kid again. Being an adult too much can start to weigh you down so I think that playing and feeling wonder is good for the soul. It was so peaceful and quiet as the snow was gently falling. Your dad has the best view of the world, and I often have people tell me that he is a big child, but in the best way. He knows how to play. He doesn’t let the cares of the world weigh him down and he is so good about living in the moment and not worrying. I love that I have his influence in my life. He helps me to see the world through bright, happy eyes. Before I went to bed, I peaked out the round window in our laundry room and saw that the world was still. The snow was falling peacefully and the huge icicles were sparkling from our roof. I felt small in this big world, in the best way. I felt cozy in my warm house. 





Tomorrow is the big transfer day. We have lots of people rooting and praying for us, and many people who will be involved tomorrow. My eyes got teary as I wrote that because I’m so touched at how many people care for us. It has healed my heart and helped me stay positive and happy. To name a few; the embryologist, our great doctor, my favorite ultrasound tech, and the man who does my acupuncture. I’m going in to see him at 12, and then he’s going to meet me at the fertility center and do it again right after transfer. People are so good!





We love you and hope we get to meet you soon. We are going to have so much fun together!! Life is so hard and you’re going to have some incredible challenges to face, but we’ll do it together. My sweet friend Susan (I’ve never met her but she treats me like her own and writes me a beautiful prayer and motivational thought every morning) said this recently and I loved it, “The giant in front of you is never bigger than the God who lives in you.” I know you’ll be coming from God’s arms to ours. His arms are much better but we’ll fight together to get back to Him and He’ll be with us every step.





You’re worth it all.





xo

Mom






After your Aunt Jocelyn’s birthday dinner the other night! I couldn’t stop laughing.



IVF
Last night at dinner. My mom was laughing because it looked like I was eating so much!

infertility

The balloons (now a few weeks old) that my mom brought over when I had overian hyperstimulation and was so miserable. She knows I love balloons 🙂
how to deal with infertility
Yesterday’s blog post deal. There about about 50 other selfies where that came from!

infertility blog

The view this morning outside of my office window; the Timpanogos Temple. 
how to cope with infertility

Last night’s shenanigans 🙂
how to get through IVF

understanding IVF


I wanted to take some pictures of your dad but he said he just wanted to take pictures of me! I promise I’m not that vain. 



Related Posts

  • To my Beautiful Child: Some Days Suck

    To my beautiful child…

  • To My Beautiful Child: First Medication Pickup

    To my beautiful child,…

  • To My Beautiful Child: First Ultrasound

    To my beautiful child,…

3 Comments

Previous Post: « 50% off Flavor Infusing Bottle!
Next Post: To My Beautiful Child: Frozen Embryo Transfer! »

Reader Interactions

Comments

  1. Anonymous says

    December 18, 2015 at 2:37 am

    Brought me to tears. We are about to embark on our journey. Sending love, light and prayers your way!
    Natalie

    Reply
  2. Lisamarie says

    December 18, 2015 at 11:02 pm

    Thanks such a sweet letter to your baby. I believe that medrol works as an anti-inflammatory, which is good for implantation. Best of luck with everything! I love your grey jacket – is it j crew?

    Reply
  3. Anonymous says

    December 20, 2015 at 6:39 am

    Love to read about your journey. You are such sweet person.
    I can't believe doctors are asking to take so much meds. I would probably not take antibiotics. They are so hard on your body, especially during this special time. I'm not a medical person, but I'm wondering if doctors know everything. I will be praying for you, God is able to do amazing things. Question doctors some times. I hope everything will work out, but if not I would not give up but find naturopath clinic that specializes in infertility. Herbal natural meds are so much better than synthetic chimicals.

    Reply

Leave a Reply Cancel reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

Recipe Rating




Primary Sidebar

Let’s Connect

  • Instagram
  • Pinterest
  • YouTube

MEET JENICA

I SAVE YOU LOTS OF TIME AND MONEY sharing high quality AND affordable fashion and lifestyle tips since 2014 so you can get back to what you love doing! Mama to IVF twins and IVF baby boy. Infertility coach and podcaster at Fearless Infertility. So glad you're here!

A Slice of Style Newsletter

Save more time + lots of money with the best finds sent to your inbox!

Shop My Instagram Pictures!

Listen to what she says about 2 pumpkin sweaters 😂 And she’s right!! Mommy daughter date material 🥹🎃

Comment “link” and I’ll send you a DM to these clothes!

Super high quality AND affordable fall fashion perfect for your little lady (Goldie will only wear clothes that are soft and cozy) + matching moments for those fall pictures at the pumpkin patch/hay rides/carving pumpkin nights!

All of these darling outfits linked (most pieces under $20!) in my @shop.ltk shop @jenicaparcell! Comment below and I’ll send one of you a $50 credit to @sparkleinpink!!

#liketkit #sparkleinpink #mommydaughterdate #fallfashion #fallfavorites #getreadywithme #mommyandme #ad https://liketk.it/
We are putting together our fall bucket list (I’ We are putting together our fall bucket list (I’ll share with you on Friday!) and it got me thinking about these photos exactly one year ago!! We drove up the canyon on Sunday to this exact spot and I can’t believe baby Warner was in my belly AND how crazy life is! He will be ONE on October 20th! 🥹

Do you have any fall traditions you’re excited about?! It’s my favorite time of year! 🎃🍁 #fallbucketlist #fallleaves #familyphotos #ivfsuccess
What to wear in London! 🤍 The travel outfits I What to wear in London! 🤍 The travel outfits I wore + would recommend! New post on asliceofstyle.com today.

Comment “link” and I’ll DM you the blog post! #londontravel #travelwear #traveloutfit #londontrip
Our 4 day London itinerary that we LOVED is up on Our 4 day London itinerary that we LOVED is up on asliceofstyle.com! What to do, what to eat, what to see…it was a magical week full of exploring, learning and tasting!

Comment “link” below and I’ll DM you a link to the blog post that includes all the details, where to buy tickets for what, etc!

Thank you to all of you who had the BEST recommendations! #londonitinerary #londonvacation #londontrip #londontravel
I tried on 4 outfits to get my phone to stay and e I tried on 4 outfits to get my phone to stay and ended up in my workout clothes 🤣 AND LOOK AT HIM!!! From not knowing if I’d get to be a mama to 3 miracles babies (twins + this guy) that are all from the same embryo “batch” if you will. 🤯🤯🤯 I will never get over it and I will never be able to  thank God enough for these 3 in my life! #ivfmiracles #ivfsuccess #embryology
Our trip to London was INCREDIBLE and I am putting Our trip to London was INCREDIBLE and I am putting together our full itinerary so you can experience the same thing if you go!

Thanks to SO MANY OF YOU who had the best suggestions!! ✈️🙌🏻🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿

Is there anything else you want to know about our trip that you want me to include?

And tell the ladies below if you want to make sure they know about your fav London things to do! 👇🏻 #londontrip #londonitinerary #coupletravels #londoncity #lesmiserables
Goldie’s advice to me last night is excellent ad Goldie’s advice to me last night is excellent advice to all of us as we start another week:

"Have a good night's sleep.
Be well rested.
And don't be mad."

Truly solid advice, honestly. Also, don’t tell Warner we took our #parcellsundayselfie without him. He was snoozin’! #goodadvice #freshstarts #kidsquotes #goldie_says
Heading to Les Miserables in London today and it w Heading to Les Miserables in London today and it was UNREAL!!!! Their voices were truly unbelievable. I feel like my life is forever changed! 🤣😭🥰🤍🙌🏻 What is your favorite play that you’ve seen?

I can’t wait to share my full itinerary with you next week when we get back! Please note right now - if you come to London you cannot leave without seeing Les Miserables here. Commit this advice to your memory! It is a 12/10!!!! #lesmiserables #londonitinerary #londontravel
There are a million things to do in this giant cit There are a million things to do in this giant city. We are loving it (and missing our babies like CRAZY!) I’m going to put together our itinerary when we get back from London 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿✈️ Let me know what questions you have here or in the Q&A box in stories!

For those who have been - what was your TOP favorite thing to do here? #londoncity #londonvacation #londontravel

Copyright © 2023 · Refined theme by Restored 316

We are using cookies to give you the best experience on our website.

You can find out more about which cookies we are using or switch them off in settings.

A Slice of Style
Powered by  GDPR Cookie Compliance
Privacy Overview

This website uses cookies so that we can provide you with the best user experience possible. Cookie information is stored in your browser and performs functions such as recognising you when you return to our website and helping our team to understand which sections of the website you find most interesting and useful.

Strictly Necessary Cookies

Strictly Necessary Cookie should be enabled at all times so that we can save your preferences for cookie settings.

If you disable this cookie, we will not be able to save your preferences. This means that every time you visit this website you will need to enable or disable cookies again.